Bob Hostetler
If my lips
could sing as many songs as there are waves in the sea;
if my tongue
could sing as many hymns as there are ocean billows;
if my mouth
filled the whole firmament with praise;
if my face
shone like the sun and moon together;
if my hands
were to hover in the sky like powerful eagles
and my feet
ran across mountains as swiftly as the deer,
all that would not be enough
to pay you fitting tribute,
O Lord my God.
(Jewish prayer)
3 comments:
I've got a question. I hit this site by an accident. Then it brought up a
thought. I have cussed got out for the past about 4 years. up till 4 years ago i
would go to church every chance i got pray every night and in the morning. I
would never hear god but i had this good feeling he was listening. i would go to
the church for every event. free car wash's, go to the hospital and help ship
things for ppl in romania. i did just about any thing i could. and i felt good
about it. So if i'm doing everything for god that i can...Then why would he let
my parent's get a divorce ? After that happened i havn't really been to church
since. I don't know who to be angry at but as for 4 years now i've chosen god.
Why would he punish me for doing things that are right ? I don't understand
this. Maybe you can help me with some answers.
-Matt.
Matt, it's okay to be angry at God. I get mad at him every so often, because he doesn't do things the way I want him to.
I wish your parents had not gotten divorced. Thing is, God wishes that too. If you can believe it, the Bible says God hates divorce, and so he's no happier than you are about your parents' divorce.
But here's the other thing: God doesn't make people do what he wants them to do, and no matter how many car washes or church services we attend, we can't persuade God to take back the free will he gives to people, free will to choose right or wrong, marriage or divorce, etc.
At its root, your anger with God may be more than anger at this one tragic event in your life...it may be the result of the crappy realization that you can't control what other people do, even people who are ultra-important in your life. Part of becoming an adult, not just in years but in wisdom, is learning to control the things we can control (ourselves, mostly), and not trying to control the things we can't (our parents, for one).
One more thing. God isn't punishing you. He is hurting along with you, believe it or not. He's not willing to force your parents to stay together, any more than he forces you or me to do his will. But he does hurt when we hurt, and I believe he's hurting for you.
Hmm i think i see what you mean. I don't know it's just like so hard i guess and that's what kills me. Not that i want to blame god, it could be more or less i was looking for someone to blame. So the realization after the fact may be harder then the problem itself. Thanks hoss.
-Matt
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